Wednesday, December 1, 2010

It's not always about the kids

So ... yeah, Jasmine died. She was one of the first animals (aside from Sampson, who is still alive) that I raised so it is a tough loss for me. She was one of my first babies. I miss her. I stayed up all night with her on Friday night petting her and trying to soothe her the best I could. I kept telling her that I loved her, that I was sorry I couldn't save her. I laid next to her on the floor and she slept with her head on my hand and purred. I thought she would pass on Friday, but by Saturday morning even though she was still alive she was in bad shape. I could tell that she "wasn't there anymore". Her mind had checked out. I placed her on a towel in my room in the closet so she wouldn't be disturbed. I know that kids don't really understand death until the age of 5 and even then some kids think that the person who died will come back. We explained it to Devon as simply as we could and it's sad to me that he probably won't remember her. Joe took Devon in to see her when she was still alive and Devon said,"Bye Jasim. Good kitty. Miss you lot."

The day wore on and we had to get ready to go to my Mom's house for Thanksgiving. I put Devon in the car and came back into the house to say a final goodbye to her. I wanted to have a moment with her. I wanted it to be peaceful for her as much as possible. Joe sat next to me and she passed right then. It doesn't seem right that she is gone and buried in the backyard. So close and yet so far away.

In other, less depressing, news ....

I am 95% done with my Xmas shopping. Everything is wrapped and labeled and I am just waiting on a few gifts to arrive from my boyfriends, Amazon and Ebay, and I will be all set ;) I have one gift for one person that I am not totally sure about, but other than that I am done. I tried to get everything bought by December so I don't have to deal with any last minute shopping and I can just enjoy the rest of the month.

Since I stopped working with my trainer I have lost about 8 pounds. I have 5 more to go and I will be back to my pre-pregnancy weight. I would like to loose 7 more and be a tiny bit smaller. I haven't been working out much at all so I have just been watching what I eat. I have cut out snacking almost completely. What a difference that makes! It feels so good to be so close to my normal size after being out of shape for over a year being pregnant and carrying 30 pregnancy pounds. I hope to reach my goal by the new year. Woot!


Elizabeth Larson said...

You may think this sounds crazy, but I had a feeling that Jasmine died when you didn't blog for a little while. I knew you were probably busy with Thanksgiving and sstuff, but I just had a feeling. So I am so sorry for your loss. I remember losing our dog that I had loved for 10 years and it is so sad. I think it is very sweet that she held on so long and that she passed in a peaceful way.
And way to go on your dieting AND christmas shopping. I think that is wonderful!! I am almost done too, but am working on two sewing projects that are stressing me out more than any of the shopping!! And I do them every year!! ;) Anyhow, happy dieting and happy shopping and all that good stuff.

Kate said...

I have been off my blog reading lately and even though I already knew she died, it was sad to read about it again. Do you have plans on getting another animal anytime soon?
I had to read the second part twice when I thought you said you were sad that you were 95 percent done. And I was like, she likes to Christmas shop?

annieareyouok said...

Liz: I think handmade gifts are the best, but they are SO stressful for the person making them. Hope you get them finished in time!

Kate: I don't think we will get another pet (at least not for a while). I can't take it. Watching her die ... uhhhh so sad. If we do get another pet it will be a dog, Joe's responsibility and it will be for Devon. I'm not a dog person so hopefully I won't get attached ;)

And yes, you read that right ... I am DONE shopping. I finished yesterday. I actually enjoyed it this year because I knew exactly what I was going to get everyone. I usually hate the shopping part of Xmas (it's expensive, what do I get, etc) but this year was great! It is so relaxing to be done.